Woah, my last journal update was last MAY?! And almost 2 months have passed! Anyway, here's what I've been up to. I'm trying to get use to the idea of NO WORK EMAIL during day off unless its really important, been doing that for the last 2 months but my dad and sister came home from abroad so it turns out that when ever I'm free, we'd go out and spend time or go grocery or somewhere. 



I've been collecting figuarts for the past year starting off with Sailor Moon of course, I also have Ranma, Hikaru from Rayearth, Mari from Evangelion and Sakura from CCS. I havent completed all of the Sailor Moon line since the rest are still quite expensive at the moment. (esp. Black Lady, Sailor V, Jupiter and Pluto) I was lucky to find Sailor Saturn in Osaka for a very cheap price, but the cheapest was Mari that cost (Y1700), I didnt realize that it was 2nd hand because the condition of the box was still in super good condition. In Animate, they somehow tell you that the item or some items are 2nd hand and if items are broken or missing, Animate is not responsible for it. I bought my Card Captor Sakura Figuart from Osaka, Animate and wasn't able to find any Sailor Moon figuarts. I found Saturn and Ranma outside Animate so Its best to take a look at each shop before you buy anything if ever you'll visit Denden town in Osaka. 



Back to Sailor Moon Figuarts, I'm a bit pressured that the Super Version of Mercury, Mars and Jupiter is out, I'm a bit scared that they would or might stop producing old figures. PLUS, Utena, Ryouga (Ranma 1/2), Li Syaoran, Umi and Fuu (Rayearth) are also out. Hahah Sooo many figures so little savings hahahah 

Also... I've been playing this game since yesterday while I'm sick and while the weather is bad hahaha


And I've been studying, well, trying to learn Japanese for the past month since I came home from Japan. I still cant read, write and speak fluently but atleast I'm learning bit by bit. I may sound like a robot because of the sentence structure but hey, better than to have learn nothing right? I dont have plans to work in Japan to be honest I just want to learn their language a bit, enough that I can ask directions, make a few conversations perhaps. I'm sure it'll be a rewarding to speak with the locals when I visit Japan again soon.

That's all for now, till next time  

Life update

Its been 3 years since I last updated DA and I'm not sure if there are any changes happened. I've been away for so long due to job and trying to find a way to balance work and personal life. Mid 2014 to 2015 was not a good time to balance life and work, I still have to get use with my job and duties, I was struggling to get back to DA but I eventually kind'a gave up and prioritized getting enough sleep to do the day's work and survive the week. for my 1st year working, it was stressful... beating up multiple deadlines in a week, setting up good impressions with officemates, the usual getting to know everyone which eventually became more like a family, even developed new group of closes friends in the office  

Then came 2016, a more toxic and stressful year due to elections. I'm already familiar with my job's daily task and operations but that time so its up to me to steal the spot light and see what I can do. Mid 2016 is where we ran after presidential candidates, doing debates and preparing for the BIG ELECTION DAY in 2017. That year I was also designated to do one of our biggest events, Social Good Summit, where I design the over all feel of the event, from wall projector, to hand outs and video promotions. 


All those hard work from September 2014 to January 2017 all paid off and I think this year might be good to me, I finally had one of my dream came true which was to visit Japan for my 30th birthday last February. Saving up for 7 months was extremely mentally draining. I almost gave up on that trip because my mom had a stroke last November. Thank God it all push through and was able to understand how neat Japan is in real life. I can talk about my trip on a separate site which I'm still working on.

Plans and Changes for My DA page

I'm planning to hide my old or entire works in my gallery, (I'm not deleting it, they'll just be hidden in public... from my gallery) I've been thinking alot about if I should make a new DA account or keep this one but clean out all the old drawings. Let's say, a fresh new start... a clean slate. Now that I'm getting use to my job, I notice that I can slip in a short time to draw and continue commissions from where I left. Having that short break from all the chaos you've absorbed through out the years passed helped me think of alot of things. My boss said I shouldn't stress things out too much that can be fixed or negotiated. 

Am I still going to make bara drawings? Maybe? It doesn't mean that I've quit making them, I actually missed it tbh. The thing is, I started to feel uncomfortable when I seem my bara drawings on other pages, reaching various social media platforms such as Tumblr and worst... Facebook... I really appreciate my commissioners who didn't break their promise and kept their bara drawings personally.  I'm not sure if anyone here has a day job but draws Bara as sideline for extra income hahaha (lemme know if there are). 

I'd like to thank everyone who kept in touch with me in facebook, even if I tend to forget to reply or forgot to say hi due to heavy work load. I miss the art community, talking to different artist and share thoughts and ideas. Stalking their social media accounts and get to know more about their life a bit. Those 2 or 3 years that I've been away from DA felt like I've been away for decades hahaha 

Facebook is becoming a stressful, depressing and toxic place to share thoughts and ideas, the only reason why I still have it is because of communication with close friends and what they're up to. My only alternative social media site is Instagram hahah no wonder why FB copied IG Stories hahah What I meant to say was, I miss the feeling where I can escape reality for a while... and I guess I can only find that here in DA.  

Thank you guys for being still here despite that I've been away for so long.
Now that I've found a small opportunity to be active in DA again I'll do my best to update my page and get back to drawing and making personal content

Till next update  

DENGUE 

November seems to be a crazy month for me, first off I was hospitalized last Nov 6 and it was my first time to be confined at a hospital and had IV fluid for 4 days. It's a good thing my boss gave me a week off to recover and didn't have to worry about work, and our Graphics team is the best, looking out for each other, taking over my projects while I'm on recovery mode.

The headaches is not like the normal headaches I usually get when I'm stressed or sick, Either it wakes you up or it wont let you sleep. I wake up in the middle of the night just to sit up straight or sometimes stand up coz I feel like I need to circulate my blood from all those hours in bed. My doctor told me to alert the nurse if my nose or gums started bleeding on the 3rd day if my platelets are too low. Good thing I didnt and started to feel a bit better on my 3rd day. I also hate the feeling when you feel like a fever is coming up again... even if its just below 37.5... 

APEC Summit 2015

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But after a week, comes APEC Summit which I'm so glad I had the chance to work outside the office covering the event as the team's Graphics along with my colleagues / officemates. Eventhough I only attended the 1st day, I made sure that I'm having fun at work and its the best experience I had. I saw some well known journalist that I look up to, but was too shy and scared to ask for a photo with them. Was kind'a lucky that one of the freebies includes a powerbank which I was planning to buy before the APEC week. (*My savings got saved! hahahah) 

Commissions and Request concerns

I tried drawing and continuing pending commissions from time to time, but work load keeps piling up, leaving me tired on my day offs. But now, I have a new work schedule which I'll be going home earlier than before, so its time for me to try squeezing time for personal projects (Hello time management)... except on Fridays and Saturdays which I'll be working late (till 12mn and 1am)...

Also, I might stop taking request from now on, I appreciate you guys looking for me and emailing me for request which shows that you guys liked my work. But lately, I get messages asking for free request then bugging me for updates from time to time, I have work to prioritize and I can't draw while I'm at the office esp. if its... well... unsafe... heheh, sure I can squeeze in a short update on the drawing when its a slow news day... but what upsets me the most is after sending the final drawing I never even get any Thank you or a note of appreciation, considering that its a free drawing... it feels like they just ran off after getting what they want. Unlike those who paid for a commission who never bugs me for update since they know I have a busy job but when they receive an update on the finish drawing, they're so kind enough to Thank me, and I'm thankful that they're so patient and understanding.  

If being upset with the quality for "free" request that is just a flat cellshade or if it looks like I didnt put much effort to it, it's because I can't and I dont want to put too much work for a free drawing. The best quality effort I can offer for free request are like these... 



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 Unlike for those who paid for a commission, which I gave effort to their paid request.

I've also sent email-updates to commissioners, pls. check your inbox. Sigh... being away for so long then back to catch things up is difficult >_<

Sorry for the short rant there, being bombarded with messages asking for updates or being too nitpicky with small useless details then they just ran off without saying anything after you send their request... feels like being abused in some way and at the same time I kept thinking if my work isnt what it was expected... since this isnt the 1st time that had happened... 

Tales of Zestiria and Gladiolus Amicitia (FFXV)

Been playing ToZ for weeks now and esp. during my one week rest after being hospitalized and itching to draw Sorey and Sergei I also have this drawing of Gladiolus that I havent finished yet, I wanted to show his tattoo but I dont have any reference yet so its still on hold at the moment until I get a good reference or just have to wait till it gets released and art materials are available heheh. It'll also be much appreciated if someone can provide me his tattoo reference  

I found this though online but and I can see that its a bird... but cant make out what the head is like, I can see its beak, wondering how its designed... 


Anyway... Hope everyone's doing well and safe, (esp. those who lives in France) lets see if this new schedule is in favor in getting me back into drawing and be active in DA again

I'll be uploading new commissions tomorrow, been busy with work these past weeks / months but trying to keep up with drawings when ever i find time. I still take work on my day off just to finish a project and submit on time. I love my work to be honest, I still have problem juggling work and personal projects >__<

There are just those days you just want to be lazy and do nothing after a draining week at work hehehe, for those who have day jobs and do commission works or have personal side projects how do you find time to balance them both? And for those Bara artist with day jobs do you think I should lie low with my bara drawings to be easily discovered online? :S 

---- Bara Fans Rejoice! ----

--- well... maybe not... ---

I'd also like to post the link but I might get suspended and might violate DA rules =__=
I cant seem to remember the other site that I suggested last year... Paperdragon? O_o
("Oh man, I'm getting old, I even forget the name of that site >__<")

---- Life Update ----

--- Holy week and belated happy easter ---